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The COVID Diaries: Entry 6: Despised

by RDH

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'Despised' was conceived on the same day as ‘Suffocating’. If I remember correctly I came up with the intro riff as I was waiting for a file to load in the studio.

I was really into the idea of keeping that 4 to the floor beat through the intro & verse. As has happened a few times through this process, the song then just evolved as a journey, never really repeating itself. Coming in at just over 2 and a half minutes long it felt like a short sharp shock

Lyrically, the song deals with the time when we were coming out of full lockdown but not really being given any real direction just guidelines and it just felt like we were just constantly being lied to.




No clear roadmap just a set of guidelines
Left to our own devices we’ll kill mankind
Cannot be trusted to live our own lives
Got to be guided by the ones we despise

You cannot live our life

Make your own way

Make your own way in this life as you see fit
Live with standards that yourself would like to get
Make your own way in this life but don’t forget
You will all be judged by how you lived through this

You changed the rules on us and now we’re left confused
There is one rule for you, another for us all
And we want to know the truth! but it’s all lies that you have told
You lost the trust you had and with it all control

Do as you are told
We don’t believe we’re wrong

Change the rules as they see fit
Rule our lives with their remit
Hold us down with all this
Fear of nothing

All we want transparency
Look around for clarity
Spell it out so we don’t
Fuck this shit up

Must question everything
Don’t believe the lies


released November 22, 2020

Music & Lyrics : Richard Larkum

Vocals, Guitars, Bass & Drums : Richard Larkum

Recorded, Mixed & Mastered at thebigrockroom


Contact - studio@thebigrockroom.com

Bigrock Records 2020


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